Monday, May 16, 2011

Knowing the path and walking the path

Well, I guess it's actually been a couple of weeks since I sat down and wrote. Anything. I had all of these great ideas about how I was going to write a certain amount every night, and then update my blog every week, etc., and that lasted all of about two weeks.
     My goal was to get into a habit of writing regularly, perhaps venting a little bit, perhaps a little creativity thrown in, get some practice writing, and maybe keep some people entertained.
     I've come to realize though, that while I love creating all of these great plans, I have difficulty sticking to them. I'm not sure why that is. It seems that I form bad habits rather easily, but the good ones don't seem to stick quite as well. The weird part is that I really do like writing, It's not like it takes me an effort, but I think that when I set goals and make plans for myself, something in me automatically rebels. Apparently my resentment for authority runs that deep.
     Another funny thing is that I always think of things to write about too. Things that I find funny, things that piss me off (there's an endless supply of those.), things that I think about, things that I've seen, read, or heard, I mean the list is literally endless, and yet, I don't write.
     It's not as if I don't have time, I seem to find enough time to watch television, which is really weird because I don't like television that much.
     I have other things that I do, but I can afford to set aside a little bit of time every day to get some writing in.
     I can blame it in part on a lack of discipline, but it's not that I lack self discipline, I lack the discipline to exercise my self discipline, and how does one work on that?
     I guess the only way to finish anything is to start it, which I did, and so I guess I can look at it as a little bump in the road that I didn't actually stick exactly to my plan, I mean, I'm writing now, so I'm back on the right path.
     I don't doubt that I will probably stray from the path many times over the course of my life, but I also think that these variances will become less, and my desire to stick to the path even more, the further along down the road I travel, but I have to go now... Jeopardy is on.