It's funny that I had this big plan to sit and write every night about things that I wanted to blog about, every single one of my blog posts since that statement has been written on the spot. The reason I had planned to write every night night was so that I would be sure to have something to write about every weekend in my blog. I think the funniest thing is that when I sit down to write a blog post, I have no idea what I'm going to say until I see it on my computer screen. Usually the title is the last thing that I add to the post. I sat down this morning with the idea of being "productive".That's actually kind of interesting because my definition of productive is constantly evolving, which I didn't realize until I actually just saw the word "productive" and realized that I consider writing to be productive.
I really like writing. When I was younger I used to write poetry. I think some of it was pretty good, I had a book with thirty or forty some poems in it. That's kind of a story in and of itself, I'll tell it briefly.
I took the time to take all my notebooks that had my poems in them, and rewrite them in one brand new notebook. I threw away all of the rough copies of them so I only had this one copy of all of my poems in this notebook. I let my cousin borrow it because we had been talking about poetry, and he wanted to read my work. He stole the book of poems. I was pissed. Then he died, I guess I don't know the whole story but I think it was drug related. I never got my book of poems back. True Story.
I've always been good at writing. Essays, stories, poems, whatever. One of my favorite books is actually called “On Writing” by Stephen King. Some of his words of advice to are aspiring writers are “Read a lot.”. I do. I always have. I love reading, and I'm aware of what styles of writing that I like, and I think that shows up in my writing.
I hadn't really written in a long time until recently. I don't know why, I think that lately I was focusing on making money and I kind of viewed writing as a hobby. I've entertained the idea of writing for money, a freelancer, an author, whatever. I would have to be something like that. I couldn't be a writer on assignment I don't think. I want to write about what I want to write about. I guess I probably could, I mean I've written reports about things that I didn't care about, and if I had the opportunity, on second thought, I guess I would. But I'd be happiest just writing about what I want to write about.
I'm going back to school in the fall. I thought that I had figured out what I was going to do, or at least roughly... I wanted to do something in the computer industry. Initially I thought that I was going to go into web design. I've been doing that a bit, I enjoy it to a certain extent, and there's good money in it. I started my web design business, and actually started doing it in my spare time. I'm not very good yet, but I've made a couple decent web sites for my friends, I gave them a good deal, got some experience, it seemed like a win win situation. But after a couple of weeks of working late into the night, I began to realize that although I like web design, I'm not passionate about it.
With that realization I started looking for something that I really liked, and now I'm looking at computer science. I've always been into computers, from the commodore sixty four and the Apple II's of my youth, to my current laptop and desktop that I use every day. That's still an option for me I think. , but when I started writing again I realized that this is something that I love doing, that I'm passionate about, and something that I'm good at. It feels like this is what I'm supposed to do. I can see myself at my computer all day, writing stories, or articles about things that I actually care about. Hell I sit here and write this for fun, and I consider it being very productive. It seems like a clear cut case of what I should do with my life, maybe something that I've always known I should do.
I'm not really faced with a conundrum here, the reality is that right now I need a job that pays the bills. Were it only me it would be different, but I have a child to support, and she can't live off of Ramen noodles and caffeine.
The starving artist stereotype really isn't a stereotype. J.K. Rowling, while not homeless as the rumors say, was extremely poor and on assistance when Harry Potter was released. There are tons of artists whose work didn't make any money until after they were dead. I can't afford to be one of those, but although I'll go to school for a marketable skill, I always have been and will be a writer at heart, and maybe I can sneak a writing course or two in next to those computer classes.