Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Poker, Shrimp, Beer, and Make Up.

Tuesday doesn't mean as much as it used to. My buddy used to say that good things happen on Tuesdays and Sundays... I don't know if we ever proved or disproved that theory, but we always used it as an excuse to drink.
    I haven't drank since St. Patty's day, five days ago. Longer than I usually go without drinking. I didn't really plan on not drinking, today was just the first day that drinking actually sounded good. My Web Site went live on Sunday, so that's a good thing, And it's Tuesday and I'm drinking, so maybe good things actually do happen on Tuesday and Sunday.
    Actually I decided to drink today because I didn't go to the movies. I was going to see "The Adjustment Bureau" but it was crappy out, and I really didn't feel like driving in the crud. So I decided instead to boil some shrimp, drink some beer, and play a little poker.
    Again if you don't know me, I love poker. I entertain the idea of going pro some day, and yet I haven't played in almost two weeks. I might add that I'm down hundreds of dollars playing poker as well, however I have to say that when I first started playing a lot, I told every one that I would probably end up spending as much time and money as it took to get an associate's degree before I started to make any money at it.... And I'm still well within both the monetary and time frame. I'm cool with it.
     Well, that was yesterday, and I lost twenty dollars playing poker, but the shrimp and the beer were good, so I guess I'll consider last night a success.
      On to the make up.
      Maybe it's because my daughter seems to be growing up quickly that this topic has been on my mind as of late. I'm not a guy who likes girls who wear a lot of  make up, I never have been, and I can't see myself changing in the near future. I'm a big believer in self expression, and I suppose that make up could be viewed as a form of self expression, and in that aspect, I'm cool with it. But on the other hand, there are a lot of women who hide behind make up. I'm very opposed to this. I don't want my daughter growing up thinking that she needs make up to be pretty, or to win somebody's approval.
     I asked a friend who always wears makeup why she felt the need to wear it, and she said she thinks she looks better with it than without it, and that saddens me. I want my daughter to know that she's naturally beautiful. I don't want her to think that make up will make her prettier, or more attractive. I want her to be confident in who she is, and that obviously starts with the values that we instill in our children,  both girls and boys.
      I could blame the media for this, I mean we're given images of what beauty is, and what's attractive, and how we should look, and dress, and think. If you think about it media influences almost every aspect of our life. But I can't change what the media does, the only thing I can change is the effect that it has on the way my child thinks, by encouraging her to believe in herself, and to think for herself,and not let anyone else create her definitions or values for her.
     As a parent, I strive to prepare my child for life. I think that's my job, and I'm not sure how I'm doing with it, but I think I'm doing ok.
     I'm pretty honest with Jada, I let her make most of her own decisions, I help her when I think she needs it, and I let her struggle when I think she doesn't need it. I'm a pretty fair parent, not super strict, but she doesn't run over me either.
     When she asks me why she can't do something I never say "Because I said so", I always try to give her a reason. I feel if I can't give her a reason than there's no reason she shouldn't do that thing. I don't know if this is necessarily right or wrong, but I try not to do the things that my parents did to me that I thought weren't right.
    But I'm getting away from my topic. Am I going to forbid my child to wear make up? Absolutely not. As I said, I allow her to make as many choices as possible. What I am going to do is instill in her the fact that she is beautiful, and that she doesn't need it. I know that she will wear it, she's eight and she likes to wear make up right now. What eight year old girl doesn't? But I hope that she realizes with every fiber of her being that she is beautiful, and brilliant, and confident, and that that is more appealing than any make up.
     And for all the girls who hide behind their make up?.... Eat that shit and see if it makes you pretty on the inside.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Saturday morning, St. Patty's day recovery, and general monotony

Well, it's Saturday morning around 9:30, I'm at my kitchen table set up to go to work, but I haven't had enough coffee to begin thinking... I'm sort of letting my brain warm up so to speak.
     It looks like it's going to be a long day, I've got a lot of work a head of me, all in preparation for a lot more work, but it's good, it's what I want.
     First of all let me say that this is a little bit different than writing a journal. I though that I'd keep it journal style, and just write as I would in a journal, but I guess that's kind of impossible, I think everybody writes a bit different when they're writing for an audience, but as I said, I'm going to try to to  include as little bullshit as possible.
     I do think that this will help keep me motivated though, and interested in writing, so again, it's a good thing.
     Let me say that this text editor sucks. I think that from now on I'm just going to do it in my own text editor and paste it in here. I use Libreoffice, which is a pretty bad assed and free version of Microsoft office. I guess I can't speak for all of the programs, because I have only used the spreadsheet one and the writing one, but those, so far, are as good have all the same functions and ease of use as excel and word. And did I mention free?
     I'm a big fan of open source stuff.  I just like the whole idea of a hive mind working to create something. I think that it inspires creativity and makes a product that much better. I think the whole concept is inspiring.
     I do use Adobe cs4 though, I haven't found anything that remotely comes close to the performance of those products, I mean, most of that stuff is the industry standard, and there's a reason for that.
     Now see, here's what I mean writing different in a journal. I never would have written any of those previous two paragraphs, because I know my feelings on that subject, but I felt obligated to share them with the people who may read this. Whatever.
     St. Patty's Day... My favorite Holiday, or whatever you want to call it. I love it. on the other hand, I'm glad that it only comes once a year.
     I debated with my self for about two weeks as to whether or not I was going out on St. Patty's day... On one hand, I love the holiday, and on the other hand, I have a lot of work that I want to get done, plus I don't want to blow the overtime that I've been getting at my day job.
     Last year I said I was going out for a couple of beers, and ended up missing work the next day, and this is not an uncommon occurrence when it comes to St. Patty's day and me.
     This year at the last minute, I decided that I would go out, have a couple of beers and figure out the rest of the evening.
     I had worked about ten hours that day and got out of work about 6:30. My buddy Dale followed me home and I dropped my truck off (One OUIL is enough for me) and we headed to Michael's where I promptly ordered a Guinness and two Irish Car Bombs.We slammed the Irish car bombs and I was sipping the Guinness when the bartender handed me another Guinness that someone had bought me... Double fisted with Guinness at 7:30, with one Irish car bomb in me already.... 80 dollars later and the rest is pretty much history. I had a fun night though, and managed to work nine hours the next day to finish with a 50 hour week. Not too shabby, although I wasn't very productive last night... Can't complain though... You know what they say, "All work and no play..." But now it's on to work.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Oooh No need for a title.

Sooo apparently it's been a long time since I've written in this blog... Apparently no one has missed me that much since I have no followers.... I'm not sure if I really want to change that or not.
I thought about linking this blog to my business site, but I'm not sure if that's a good idea, because sometimes the things that I have in my head aren't very popular with a lot of people. I think that I would like people to read my blog though. As I mentioned in an earlier entry, I've never been good at keeping a journal, and I think that if I had some followers, I would be more inclined to keep adding stuff to the blog, especially if I got some feedback. I don't know, I just kind of like the idea of having something to say, and people having the option of interacting with me. I know most people probably don't want to take the time to make a comment, but I think that there are some people who will, and those are the people that I want to address anyway. So yes, I think that I actually will try to solicit some blog followers...
I think that for the most part I tend to stay in the back ground and complain about everything. Only a few people hear my thoughts and opinions, and I think that in some instances, that's a good thing, but in others, probably not so much. I'm like everybody else, I have some things to say, sometimes they're bullshit, and sometimes there pretty important. Sometimes it's hard to sift through the bullshit. So here it is. Trying to sift through bullshit to get to as much of the truth as possible....